I’m a pretty straight-laced girl. I don’t do a lot of things one might consider “rebellious”. I snuck out one time (sorry Mom) in high school and I was white as a sheet coming back in the house, convinced that my parents were going to be sitting in my room waiting for me when I returned. When I got my nose pierced as a junior in college, it was the first real “against my parents wishes” thing I did publicly. It’s hilarious now because I put a temporary piece of metal in my face, was so pumped about it, and then freaked out because I knew I was disappointing my parents. That’s about as wild as it gets for this goody two-shoes.
I’m sharing these two little anecdotes because they are mile-markers in my life for how I came to value being bold and being confident. While I have often times wished away the power these two traits have in me and over me, I know that I want to use & share the gifts and characteristics the Lord has given me specifically + the experiences he has walked me through in order to bring glory to his name. He doesn’t make mistakes. I’d rather be confident and steadfast in his truth and in who I am than be someone who doesn’t even take the chance (or questions it) to walk through it.
I’m someone who chases after what I want when I know it’s what I want. I’m someone that dreamed of living in Nashville when I was 13 and decided to just go do it years later. I’m the weirdo girl who goes to concerts by myself. I’m the daughter who, when asked what she thought about moving 700 miles away smack dab in the middle of high school, said “how would we know what it was like if we never left?” I’m the (again, weirdo) girl who took advantage of a once in a lifetime opportunity to host my all-time favorite musician in my backyard. I’m someone that is going to ask you how you feel about me if I’m unclear. I’m also going to shoot my shot. I’m the girl that’s going to put herself out there at the risk of looking like an absolute idiot in the process. (I’d also like to take this moment to share that I was also the girl whose senior quote in the yearbook was, “You may all go to hell, and I will go to Texas” – Davey Crockett. Talk about confidence….hah!)
Because I’d rather know. I’d rather try and fail, staying true to myself in the process, then sit back and wonder what if, and I’d rather not wait around for something to MAYBE happen. As we bulldoze through 2019 (seriously, it’s about to be November before we even know it), take the chance. Prayerfully, considerately, and with guidance and wisdom from those who love you – be bold.